>I am not feelin’ the love at the moment. Yours, yes! Oh yes! But the running love. That’s not coming my way right now. I am just exhausted. My non-running buddies look at me and tell me it’s because I’m running too much. But I think that’s unlikely to be it – I have, after all, trained at this intensity twice before and the first time I was holding down a demanding job as well as doing it – and I had far more energy than I do at the moment.
I am finding my runs hard. I got my 53 miles in last week but not with great grace, style or speed. My long run – 17 miles in windless sunshine – was run at a slower pace than my crazy 20 miler in torrential rain the week before. My speedsession was okay-ish. Sunday I set out for 13 miles with 8 at HM pace. I managed 5 at an 8 min/mile pace before I called it a day and slowed down and settled for 11M in total. Just wiped. Now – in all honesty – I have to tell you that I went to a friend’s birthday party on Friday night and drank too much white wine and stayed up too late. Saturday’s dismal 5 miler was therefore to be expected. But I must be getting old if it’s still affecting me on Sunday? I didn’t drink that much.
And this week it feels like concrete has been poured into my legs. 8M at 5:30 am on Tuesday morning? Slow. 12M yesterday? Slow.
And today? Today has so not been my day. I had all my long run kit laid out for me this morning but realised after I dropped my son off at school that I had forgotten my gloves. It’s around freezing, so that wasn’t going to work. Running a post-office errand I then went off and bought some gloves from a charity shop across the street. Good, cheap but a tad snug. Then on my way back to my car I dropped 50 dollars I had just exhanged – had a good samaritan not pointed this out they would have been lost. I then got to my car just as the woman parked in front of me backed into it. She damaged my number plate and front grille. She was very apologetic and I was feelings so defeated by this stage that I didn’t have the energy to argue. Took her name and number and now need to get this fixed. Then realised I had lost my car keys. Back to post office where I had left them. Finally finally finally got to my running place. This morning I was meant to go out for 18M with 14M at race pace. I got to about mile 3.5 when my phone rang with an urgent domestic message which meant I had to turn around and cut my run short – and I have to say I was relieved. Although I had been doing 8:25 min/miles until that point I was beginning to doubt I could keep it up – I was just feeling whacked and exhausted and a bit dizzy. So I made it 6.5 miles and will try again tomorrow.
So what’s going on? I am sleeping enough – 8 hours a night. Taking my iron pills. Not running more than I have done before. Eating well – I think. Lots of fruit, vegetables, wholegrains, carbohydrates. Not much wine or junk. I wonder whether I am not getting enough protein though. Any views on this? Maybe I need to have some of those disgusting shakes sometimes. Ideas? Suggestions? I am in the process of trying to get a doctor’s appointment – I don’t suspect anything is seriously wrong at all but I am somehow not on top of things right now. Which is a bit demoralising with only 5 1/2 weeks to go until Boston.
Otherwise, things are fine though. All the above may also just be mental fatigue from training for so long – I feel I have been at this a long time. I am conscious of the things I am not getting around to doing because I am training. Hrmm.
And another ray of sunshine has just been delivered, courtesy of the lovely Melisa – 4 gigantic bags of dark chocolate M&Ms. This may just be the food of champions. We shall see… Hope everyone else’s running is going okay – keep at it and I will do the same.