>And am I ready for it? Finally, I think I am getting there. People have been asking me for weeks and I have to say that I’ve been thinking “No, I’m not”. I’ve found it hard to get into my marathon zone for this race.
This is, in part, because I’m not traveling far for it and making complicated arrangements. It’s out on Saturday am (1 hour flight from our local airport), back late Sunday night. Adam’s staying home with the kids so I’m not making my usual complicated childcare arrangements, and I know Amsterdam well so I’m not so concerned with attaching a holiday / sightseeing to it. All good stuff, but all this preparation does get you in the mood, I’ve realised, and because I’ve been so preoccupied with life here I’ve not really focused on my trip.
Then, I suppose, I haven’t been in the mood because part of me is worried about it. Don’t get me wrong – I know I’ll finish it. But I’m worried that I’m not going to finish well enough – in my own judgment. I feel I’ve done a lot of training but over the past 4/5 months I’ve given it 80%, not 100%.. And now that the race is almost here I’m just trying to adjust myself to the fact that I may well not run as well or as fast as I did in last year’s Chicago marathon. And that’s fine too – I know that – I just want to feel fine about that. Does anyone else know what I mean?
However, by and large I’m ready. The training is almost done, it is what it is and I’ve got what I have in my pot. So I’m going to go out there on Sunday morning and give it my best. I promise.. This is the first time I’m running a race with so many of you reading my blog and checking on my progress – adds to nerves but also excitement! I don’t think they’re giving updates during the race but the website is here. And I’ll post as soon as I get home..